I kept telling myself that I would talk about this fear of mine once I faced it head on but then I kept putting it off because I didn’t want to feel like a failure if I wasn’t able to overcome it. I have had a fear of driving ever since I could remember and combined with my fear of failure, I have been hesitant to take my road test again after failing it the first time 3 years ago. I don’t like the feeling I get when I can’t do something properly and although taking the written test wasn’t hard (had to take it 3 times over the last 6 years after letting my permit expire) when it came to facing the road test, I always pushed back the date because I never felt like I was ready. I tried figuring out why I was so afraid behind the wheel and I have come to the conclusion that although I am afraid of failure, my biggest issue is my fear of death. I am not worried about my demise but being responsible for someone else’s life is a very scary thing and even if I am the most careful driver, things can happen. I know that thinking this way is only holding me back but when I get behind the wheel, I can’t completely relax because of it. I start over thinking every little thing and simple tasks become complicated inside my jumbled mind. I have to get over this to get my license and most importantly. to gain control over my life and my destiny. Fear can be crippling mentally and physically and I don’t like the fact that I am the one that’s standing in my way. So what should I do?
At first I wasn’t sure of what the answer was but after getting to the root of my fears, I know to deal with my fear of driving and fear of failure I have to understand that even though I may have some control over my life, I can’t control outside factors and how others think and act. There is only but so much that I can control and I have believe in myself and God that everything will be alright. Letting go and having faith is one of the hardest things but to face your fears, you have to be ready to deal with the outcome, no matter what it is. Although my fear is of driving, this can apply to any fear or obstacle you may have. My road test is 2 weeks away and I promised myself that I would not cancel no matter what because I need to take it again and even if I do fail, I can always go back in 2 weeks and try again. There is a quote by Thomas Edison that goes, “”I have not failed. I’ve just found 10000 ways that won’t work” and once you look at failure and life from that perspective, it changes everything. Wish me luck:)
Love and live luxuriously!
Janine and I after our interview:)
I love listening to new music and discovering new artists online on different sites but I found an amazing artist in the last place I ever thought I would: watching an episode of “Love and Hip Hop Atlanta”…I try to stay away from watching ratchet television on VH1 but one night, I was bored and gave in to the madness and I am so glad I did. While I was viewing one of the scenes not really paying attention to what was going on, I heard this beautiful song play in the background and wanted to hear it in its entirety. Right before the commercial break, I found out that the artist’s name was Janine and the Mixtape and the song playing was called “Hold Me”. It was a wrap after that! I found her “Dark Mind” EP on Itunes, downloaded it and fell in love with her voice and subject matter. I wanted to meet the person behind the music and ask her what inspired such beautiful yet dark lyrics. I was thrilled when a couple of months after hearing her song on VH1, I was able to interview her in NYC and I must say that meeting Janine and The Mixtape surpassed all of my expectations! She is a beautiful soul inside and out and I can’t wait to see what the future has in store for her. Check out our interview where Janine discusses her music, her thoughts on beauty and how much she loves NYC among other things! Enjoy!
For more info on Janine check her out on Twitter (@janine_mixtape) Instagram (@janine_mixtape) and on her website (http://www.janineandthemixtape.com/)
Always remember to love and live luxuriously!
Good Morning! I have been so anxious to talk about the amazing experience I had on Friday night at the Sierra House in East Orange, NJ. The Sierra House is a transitional house for young women and their young children who are trying to figure out what the next step in their lives should be. They may be homeless because of financial struggles, family issues or a combination of many things and the Sierra House is there not only as a physical place for them to live in but the people who work there are able to connect them with the people who can give them the information, tools and resources needed to help them get back on track. After reading about this amazing place, I wanted to talk to these ladies and give them some inspiration because I felt that they could use some positive words of encouragement to brighten their day. Before I stepped up to speak, the women all shared a bit of their back story as well as where they were in their lives now and I was in awe. many of these women have been raped, molested and abused by family members and others close to them and still found something inside them that gave them the power to fight and overcome the darkness from their past. Most of these women had small children and they explained that their children were their motivation to want better in their lives. Needless to say, I was blown away and was hesitant to speak because even though I had been through many things in my life, I had never had to deal with that type of pain and betrayal from people I trusted. I then told myself to get over it because this wasn’t about me.I was here to connect with these women and to show them that having confidence in themselves is the foundation on which everything else stands.
I shared personal stories with them from my childhood that affected the way I viewed myself as well as what I did to overcome these issues. The women were so receptive and sweet and asked me many questions about my site and my goals and it was in that moment where I realized that even though I came to talk to these women and encourage them, their attitude and positive outlook on life has opened my eyes and made me appreciate everything that made me who I am today. They touched my heart and I am so thankful that I was able to have this experience because I want to continue to learn and grow not only as a businesswoman but as a person. I definitely plan on going back really soon and I want everyone who comes to “Amore Luxe” to know that even though I want to be successful and famous in the entertainment field, my number one goal is to connect with others and help each other by sharing our life experiences and my experience at the “Sierra House” showed that this goal is attainable and priceless.
I want to thank Keely Freeman who is the founder of Sierra House, Tanya Taylor who is a coordinator and social worker at Sierra House , Angela Daniels, my publicist who was the one who told me about this amazing place and finally, a HUGE thank you to all the ladies that shared their experiences with me and opened up their hearts to listen to me and hear my story. Words can’t describe how grateful I am to have been in your presence and I can’t wait to come back to talk to all of you again:)
To donate, volunteer or for general information about the Sierra House, make sure you check out www.sierrahouse.org
Me with one of the cutest babies at the Sierra House
Not sure what we were talking about but I know I was passionate about it because of my hands!
Listening to one of the ladies talk about her experiences
Always remember to love and live luxuriously!
“They say you can’t have cake and eat it too, but ain’t that what you posed to do?’
I have listened to “Cake” by Trey Songz for the past couple of weeks (very catchy song btw) and the line quoted above comes from the famous saying “You can’t have your cake and eat it too.” I always took that as meaning that you can’t have it all but isn’t that the point of life? We want it all and who is to tell us that we can’t have it all if we are deserving of it? The thing is that what we want changes with time and experience. For example, I always wanted to be successful in the entertainment business and I told myself that I would work behind the scenes to achieve my goal. Over time though, I wasn’t content with being in the background. I wanted to be wealthy and be seen because I wanted my voice to be heard. Some people may think that its asking for too much but I feel like if I really want something and put the work in, it is attainable. On top of all that, I want to give back and help others that are struggling to find themselves and their place in this world. So many people sacrifice their dreams to make others happy or because they feel like they have to settle for mediocrity but I want to eat all my cake dammit! I do want to be famous and wealthy but I want my contribution to the lives of others to outweigh all of that. Difficult isn’t impossible and I have seen others before me have their cake (look at Oprah!) so I will continue to be motivated to push towards my goals.
Now having your cake and eating it too can come with a price. I don’t condone cheating in any form. The cheater wants it all from 2 or more people (maybe sex from one person, good conversation from another, money etc.) and the one that is being cheated on may or may not be aware that the other person isn’t completely committed to them. I feel like in these cases, you have to make a choice. In Tyler Perry’s film “Why Did I Get Married”, it was called the 80/20 rule. So many people forget about the 80 percent that they already have while looking for the 20 percent that they want. When they finally have it, the reward isn’t as sweet as it was thought to be. In other words, that luscious red velvet cake that once looked so appealing in the window turned out to be stale when you actually got to have a taste of it!
The moral of this post: You can have your cake and eat it too but make sure you are aware of the consequences that can come with wanting it all!
Always remember to love and live luxuriously!