Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
1 Corinthians 13 4-7
At the beginning of 2014, I told myself that I would make a solid effort to change my life. I started working out (doing the 30 day ab challenge and 30 day squat challenge which I will talk about in detail tomorrow) as well as trying to eat healthier (I realized that if I am going to keep it up, I gotta start cooking more) but I know that lasting change starts from within. I have a way of being very negative and critical when it comes to others but mainly when dealing with my own insecurities and missteps in life. Sometimes I take my negative energy and spread it around without even realizing it. Sometimes no words need to be said because a person’s actions say it all. I wasn’t in a positive space so I would isolate myself from others, flake when making plans and start throwing a pity party and criticize those who didn’t understand where I was coming from. What I failed to realize is that I wasn’t emitting positive energy into my space and I was blocking the positive energy from others as well so all I saw was the negative in every situation. Sometimes you don’t even have to be the one sharing the negativity but if you are around it and you encourage it or don’t do anything to prevent it, you are just as guilty as the source of the negative energy. I realized that after a conversation that I had last night and I started feeling bitter and resentful towards the person who stood by and let others bring the negativity in. After thinking about it today, I realized that you can’t meet negative energy with negative energy. Positive energy has to be in place for it to cancel out.Just like you can’t fight hate with hate. You have to confront hate with love. It is harder to show love to someone who has hurt you but many times, those are the people who need it the most. I am not saying go around and hug everyone that has done you wrong but wishing the same amount of negativity that they have brought in your life will only weigh you down. In my situation, I will continue to be there for the person that has disappointed me because I know that at least one of us will benefit from it in time. If the negativity persists and gets to be too much, I will fade into the background but I will try my best not to surrender to the ways of the past. Most importantly, I will do my best to show love because true love in any relationship has the power to comfort, protect and most importantly, help the healing process. I love all of you and I thank you for your encouraging words and support.