Last week after seeing the preview for the movie “The Fault In Our Stars” for what seemed like the millionth time, I decided to read the book that the movie is based on before seeing it in the theaters this weekend. I knew that the book would be sad because the main character, Hazel Grace has cancer and her days are numbered and keeps to herself to reduce the pain that she feels that her death will ultimately bring. One day she meets an amazing guy and falls in love with him but tries to push him away but their love is stronger than she ever expected it to be . I assumed it would be a touching but sappy story but in reality, it was brutally honest about how short life really is and although forever isn’t possible, dreams are and it doesn’t hurt to have hope and fight for what you want even when the odds are stacked against you. I cried a lot so I am pretty sure that the movie won’t be any different!
I have a friend who is really sick but even though she has many obstacles in her way, she continues to push through the pain and inspires everyone around her. After losing my father back in April and then finding out about my friend’s rare illness, I started to question why these bad things were happening. I never thought I was invincible but sickness and death seemed like something that were so far out of reach. My grandfather and grandmother died when they were in their 80’s and 90’s and had a long happy life so I always told myself that I wouldn’t have to worry about those things in my 20’s. It wasn’t until my father became ill that death wasn’t this far off mystical thing that I could push aside and deal with it later and when he passed 5 weeks after having a stroke, it hit me hard and I wasn’t sure how to deal. I became anxiety ridden and had difficulty sleeping as a result. Nothing made sense anymore and my future seemed bleak. I never had to deal with anything so painful before so finding peace was difficult. I can’t say that I am all better now because I still have these dark moments but reading this book helped change my outlook on life and most importantly, death. There are situations around me that are out of my control but I can control how I view these situations. I feel that having a positive outlook on life will help me handle sad situations better and although pain is inevitable, for all the bad that happens, I feel that good will follow and balance everything out.
Much love to all of you and always remember to love and live luxuriously!