“We don’t have to be ordinary…Make your best mistakes…‘Cause we don’t have the time to be sorry…So baby be the life of the party.”
Shawn Mendes- Life of The Party
This post is dedicated to the Columbia High School class of 2004. It’s been 10 years already and I am excited about our 10 year reunion next month (still gotta get my ticket though!) I started thinking about high school and all the things that went on and I realized that although I was there physically, I didn’t know how to live my life to the fullest just yet. Instead of going to parties, dating, and getting involved in other social activities like the other kids my age, I was focused on getting the hell out of there in one piece because I felt like no one understood me and who I really was. All people knew was that I was obsessed with Usher (I had it bad lol) and that I was shy and socially awkward when not talking about him. Part of that was my fault because I feared rejection so I chose isolation instead. I don’t believe in clichés and high school wasn’t a “Mean Girls” or “She’s All That type of situation but I do feel like I wasted a lot of time worrying about what other people expected of me. I was so worried about not fitting in that I didn’t realize that standing out was what set certain people out from the pack and made them memorable. Recently, I’ve had conversations with people from high school that I still keep in touch with and I realized that many of them had the same insecurities that I had when it came to how people perceived them. All that time when I felt like I was alone, there were people who were going through similar dilemmas but they just chose to handle them differently. Instead of becoming withdrawn like I did, they became the “life of the party” and chose to follow their hearts. Granted, some people became dynamic personalities solely because of the attention and/or because they wanted to be seen cool in the eyes of their peers but many of them just decided not the give any more fucks and do what made them happy. It took me a bit longer to catch on but I got it eventually:)
10 years later, I am able to look back and see things in a different light. I do not regret missing out on anything in high school because it made me the person I am today. I am able to say that I still have my shy and awkward moments but I know now that the only opinion that matters is my own so when I start to get in my way, I do whatever it takes to make sure I don’t fall back into those behaviors and patterns. Many people don’t feel the need for high school reunions anymore since Facebook came to existence (Thanks Mark Zuckerberg!) but I still think that it will be nice to interact with everyone up close and in person. I want to make sure that I speak to everyone because I have to make up for lost time :p You only live once but if you do it right, once is enough.
To the CHS Class of 04: See you soon!
Always remember to love and live luxuriously!