Excuse me while I blow the dust off the keypad of my laptop. I know it’s been awhile, but that thing called ‘life’ tends to be something serious every once in awhile. Life can be a beautiful thing at times. Yet, these past few weeks has been one big challenge that has been a thorn in my side since the day it started. I kept contemplating on whether or not I should post about it, not wanting to seem like a whiner, but I’m slowly realizing that someone else could be going through something remotely close to my issue. So why not blog about it with the hopes that it at least touches one person.
Since starting my senior year at Penn State University, BLUE & WHITE!, I’ve been thinking of nothing but life after graduation. I guess you can say I have been making a game plan as well as creating some sort of legacy to leave behind like Senior Class Vice-President of the Student Government Association as well the President of Confident Natural You, just to name a few. I have my last year of college all planned out with positive vibes being the fuel.
And then comes that big dark cloud of misery that pours down fat raindrops of B.S. and makes things complicated for me. I don’t want to get too much into my life , but just know that life comes with this on going cycle of good and bad days, but SHEESH there are times when breaks are needed! The amount of stress that was thrown at me in just two days was just enough for me to breakdown in tears just to see the brighter things in life. It sucks that things like that needs to happen; crying, I mean. I hate that life has the opportunity to get just that crazy that an emotional breakdown is all that a person can do. I’m not too quick to cry, so facing the reality that this particular moment was indeed the time to bring out the box of tissues and a good shoulder to cry on was a bit hard to come to terms with.
As a result, I feel better — for the most part anyway. I had to tell myself that these bad moments are just reminders that something great is about to happen. I don’t know exactly what this ‘great’ thing is, but confidence in God is all I have. Of course, stress/depression sucks at that current moment, but I’m telling you, God doesn’t give you things that He knows you can’t handle. They’re all just tests. One challenge after the other to give you that appreciation at the end of the road. At some point in my life, I know I’ll be able to look back at my senior year and all these problems will make sense.
For all those who are currently down and out and lost in life, it won’t last for long. Just have confidence in the man upstairs and you’ll be okay. He will never lead you astray if you trust and believe in him. He got you. Just hold on …