Good Afternoon! I know I promised that I would post 4x this week to make up for not posting last Friday but this week has been tough for me. I have just been feeling mentally and spiritually drained and it all comes back to focusing on people and things that have nothing to do with me. The seeds of envy and doubt started to grow within once again and it was a post that I saw on Instagram this morning that made me realize how petty and pitiful I was acting. I was so worried about everyone and everything else that I forgot about me and where I want to be in my life. Sitting around moping won’t get me anywhere and neither will comparing myself to others especially when I don’t know the journey they had to take to get to where they are.
I feel like 2015 was a year where I became so complacent and miserable with things going on in my life personally and professionally and I promised that 2016 would be different and it has to a certain extent. I am no longer dealing with men who are a waste of my time although one keeps trying to come back in the picture after I’ve made it clear that I’m not interested in being the passive, predictable me that settled for anything just to not be alone. Although that part of my life has changed for the better, I am still not where I want to be professionally. I know that I have to make a huge comeback because last year, I didn’t really do anything that would propel me forward but until today, I really wasn’t sure where to begin. I had to take a long look at myself to realize that no change can occur in my life until I change, starting with my mindset and the way I react to things. After that, I can work on being a better version of myself physically and these changes will be reflected in the content I create and share with the world. I am known for saying that I want to be the “Internet Oprah” but I forgot about all the things she has endured in the public eye especially as it relates to her weight and I know now that I have to show the bad even as I’m going through it because that is the only way I can grow and inspire others.
Baring it all has been scary and when social media magnifies everything and leaves room for criticism, I’ve been hesitant in the past to talk about things as I’m going through them. I don’t want to create a facade of a life that is perfect or near perfection when I am still struggling with being the best version of myself but I know now that I am the type of person that thrives when I am transparent and can let go of negative thoughts holding me back. I welcome your comments, suggestions and constructive critiques because as much as I want to inspire my readers, I look for inspiration from you all as well:) Stay tuned for my next post on Monday and I hope everyone has an amazing weekend!
Always remember to love and live luxuriously!