Good Afternoon! I wanted to post my 3rd Quarantine Entry a few days ago but I am all about being honest and didn’t want to post about a topic where I couldn’t give you any advice on what worked for me because I was still dealing with a particular dilemma or issue. In this case, the issue is anxiety. I have discussed my anxiety issues in the past and how I’ve tried to stop catastrophizing situations and speak positive thoughts into my life. Being quarantined has made doing these things a bit more difficult and as a result, my anxiety has been coming in full force. Dealing with the tightness in my chest and heart palpitations are one thing but the never-ending negative thoughts are what really drive me crazy. Everything is always worst case scenario and in every scenario, I am the reason why certain things are happening even when I really have no control over the actual events that are taking place. In order for me to handle my anxiety, I had to figure out the root cause of why I was feeling the way I was.
Many of the thoughts that kept popping up were related to loneliness and frustration because I felt like the life I once had was gone forever. That life included me seeing my boyfriend on a regular basis and being able to make plans with friends. Even though I know that I am not the only one having a tough time with all of the pandemic related situations we have been forced in, my responses to them were extreme and I couldn’t understand why until I took a deep look at what usually triggers my anxiety. It was then that I realized that my personal insecurities were the contributing factor and they were having a serious effect on how I perceived situations. I read way too much into things people would say and feel slighted by their actions even if that was not their intention. I made mountains out of molehills and then the mountains created avalanches in my mind that kept spiraling out of control. It was my feelings of inadequacy that was the foundation of all of my inner conflict and frustration and once I realized that, I was able to handle my anxiety better by looking at situations for what they were instead of creating worst case scenarios in my mind. By just focusing on the facts and logic and not letting emotions cloud my judgment, I was able to see that in many instances, I was either overreacting, allowing my insecurities to exacerbate situations or just worrying about situations that were unlikely to happen because I was unable to see the bright side of the situation.
Anxiety is something that I deal with on a regular basis and in extreme situations like quarantine, the feelings hit me like a mack truck. I’m learning that when they do appear, I need to take a deep breath, assess the situation and think objectively in order to gain a better perspective on things. Most importantly, allowing insecurities to creep in every time something happens that comes off as a trigger feels like I’m playing the victim and although I have no control over what others say or do, I have complete control over how I think and respond and heading into negative territory does more harm than good. I am a work in progress but I am happy that I am learning how to combat the anxiety and worry right when it happens instead of letting it linger on for hours and days at a time. One good thing that has come out of being in quarantine is self-reflection which has allowed me to really hone in on what needs to be worked on in my life in order to have the life I want. In addition to improving my mental well-being, I am determined to improve my physical well-being by working out and eating better. I’ve started on my health and wellness journey and in the coming weeks, I will update you on my progress so stay tuned for that 🙂
Are there any tips or techniques you use to deal with anxiety? Share them in the comments below! I will be back next week with another quarantine diary entry but until then, I hope you have a great weekend and remember to love and live luxuriously!