Good Morning! The topic of today’s post came to me kind of suddenly but not really because it’s been on my mind for awhile now but I wasn’t sure how to articulate my thoughts into a comprehensible post. I had a long phone chat with my friend Kimmy over the weekend (hey girl!) and we were talking about how our thoughts and words carry so much weight and that you have to be careful yet intentional with how you think and what you say. Thoughts and words have power and you attract what you put out into the world (law of attraction and all of that!) so be mindful of what you say and do. I realize that even though I may say I want things to be a certain way, my thoughts do not match my words and as a result, the actions behind those words do not usually come to fruition. I always thought that it was solely based on my lack of confidence at times but after reflecting on our conversation as well as a previous conversation with my therapist, I finally figured out what the issue was that was holding me back from greatness and what needed to change in order to let go and move forward.
After talking to my therapist a few weeks back, I realized that I have a tendency to ‘catastrophize’ everything. By catastrophize, I mean that I always think about the worst things that can happen in every situation. If I go on a job interview, I think “What if I can’t demonstrate that I am the ideal candidate for the position?” or “What if I appear to be incompetent?” I’ve done in in the past when dating especially when things didn’t go my way. I’d think to myself, “What if he leaves as a result of our argument?” I always think about the ‘worst case scenario’ and that pessimism seems to linger in various parts of my life. I realize that my mother is the queen of catastrophizing and even though I know that many disappointing moments in her life have led her to always think the worst about people and situations, I also feel that her negative thoughts attract negative emotions and as a result, it is a never ending cycle of dread and fear. Some of those behaviors have trickled down to me and although I am not as pessimistic as my mother, I know that when bad things do happen, I have a tendency to let them consume me instead of dealing with my emotions in that moment but allowing them to pass and learn from what mistakes have occurred. My biggest fears are my fear of failure and fear of death and although I cannot control the latter, I can deal with my fear of failure by changing my perspective, Instead of seeing a failed job interview as a failure or loss, I can use the situation as a learning experience on what not to do. Instead of being fearful of losing someone I really care about based off of an argument, I should focus on the honesty of my words and never to minimize my thoughts or feelings even if it means losing someone in the process. If we aren’t able to get past the argument, that in itself should tell me all that I need to know. In other words, instead of thinking about the ‘worst case scenario’, I needed to shift my thinking to the ‘best case scenario’ and let my actions follow suit.
By thinking about the ‘best case scenario’, I will enter a situation with a positive mindset because I will be able to see the bright side of any outcome and use it to push me closer to my goals instead of seeing the experience as another way of holding me back. There are many things that are out of my control but I can control the way I view the situation and most importantly, how I respond to it. I’m going to try this ‘Best Case Scenario’ mindset approach and I will be sure to let you know how it goes. I believe that it’s definitely going to improve my life going forward 😉 (see what I did there!)
What do you do to ‘decatastrophize’ a situation? I’d love to hear your thoughts on this so leave them in the comments below or on my social media (IG:@amoreluxe_ FB: Angela Cherai) so I can learn a few things from you guys! My next post should be up on Wednesday but if not then, I’ll definitely have something for you on Friday. I hope everyone has an amazing week and until the next time, always remember to love and live luxuriously!
Good Morning! I know that I was supposed to post on Wednesday but I literally could not think of anything to write about. Between work and my clients for my side hustle, I was mentally drained. I feel like I’m playing catch up after being stagnant for so long and it finally caught up with me. I know I was adamant about not having any excuses but I also don’t want to appear as if I am going back to my old ways especially after finally finding my groove. After going through my list of topics that were previously written and not feeling inspired, I figured I would just discuss exactly what is going on with me. I usually do this in the form of a voice note but since I figured that being completely transparent is what I promised I would do, why not fill my readers in with what’s going on in this crazy mind of mine and just maybe someone out there can relate! Here goes!
I am back at the daycare center as the director. My biggest fear with going back was feeling how I felt back at the end of 2017 right before I decided to leave. I felt stuck and stagnant in a place that didn’t fulfill me and although the job was fairly easy and convenient, I wanted a change. After leaving, the feeling of dread and depression temporarily lifted but because I didn’t put in the effort to find a new job after leaving my old one, I started feeling stuck again but I also was broke which made a bad situation even worse. After over a year of feeling blah and doing nothing about it, this past summer, the spark of inspiration that I was craving came in the form of a podcast that my friend DJ and I started. Working on the podcast gave me motivation to come back to the site and to get my life back on track. When I made the decision to live my best life, things started falling into place. I started gaining more clients for my writing composition services and the director job was offered to me again but I was able to choose my own hours and work on my own terms which gave me the freedom I needed to do other things. I am still looking for something that is more fulfilling and that pays better but for now, the daycare and my side hustle are helping me get my finances and my life back on track.
As far as my personal life is concerned, the last guy I was seeing went MIA and I think its because he’s got a baby on the way. Since we have history and had gotten to a point where we were being really open with each other, I thought that things would be different this time around but if the baby story is true, then his distance makes sense. I am not even mad at him (which is really big for me because he’s pissed me off in the past by doing way less) but I am disappointed in the way that things have gone down and the fact that we haven’t spoken and regardless of whatever is going on, I thought our friendship would always remain intact. Now I am not so sure but instead of stressing about it, I’m letting go because the truth will come to light eventually and I’ll know everything I need to know when it does. Needless to say, I’ve decided to invest my time and energy into other areas of my life instead of worrying about finding the one. I’ve been dabbling in the online dating sites (including the Facebook Dating app which hasn’t shown any real prospects so far) but mainly out of boredom and curiosity. I am definitely not going back to anyone in my past so the next man that comes in my life will be someone completely new. There is someone I am interested in but I’m not ready for a man like him in my life and he is end game but until then, I am going to live my best(solo) life and have hella fun while doing it:)
Yup I think that about covers it! Not sure what next week’s posts will be about but I’ll come up with something! If you have any topics you want me to discuss, hit me up on IG @amoreluxe_ and let me know! Until then, have an amazing weekend and always remember to love and live luxuriously!
Good Morning! I was so excited to post about the Emmys because the person I was rooting for most won. If you haven’t figured out from the title who that is, let me type in all caps so you don’t miss the memo: JHARREL JEROME!!! Many of you first became aware of him from his role in Moonlight and although I though he did a good job in that particular role, I didn’t really pay attention to him until June 1st 2019. I remember that day vividly because it was the day after my birthday but also the day where I watched a cinematic masterpiece “When They See Us” (directed by the genius filmmaker Ava Duvernay) with Jharrel’s heartbreaking performance in the forefront of my mind.
Even though “When They See Us” premiered on May 31st, I had birthday plans so I decided to watch it the following evening in the comfort of my home. There were 4 episodes that felt like mini movies and while each episode touched my heart, the 4th episode is the one that made me break down and sob hysterically. The 4th episode featured Jharrel Jerome’s performance as Korey Wise, one of the 5 men previously known as the Central Park 5 who were tried and convicted of a crime that they didn’t commit. Since Korey was 16 at the time, he was tried and convicted as an adult and served time in a maximum security prison. Because of this, his experiences differed from the the other boys and Jharrel’s gut wrenching portrayal of Korey touched my soul. I was blown away by his commitment to the character and the fact that he was able to give the viewers a glimpse into what Korey went through (his solitary scenes and the scenes with his mom are the highlights of the 4th episode) gave me a better understand of how unjust the criminal justice system really is especially for people of color.
I knew he would be nominated for an Emmy and I was pretty confident that he would win but sometimes award shows become popularity contests instead of focusing on pure talent. Fortunately, Jharrel won and received a standing ovation so I believe it was a mixture of both, I loved his speech because it showed his humility, shock and appreciation. Even though he was more than deserving, he did not expect to win and I feel that he brought back the excitement and joy that award shows have been missing. He is a perfect example of when you give your all for someone you believe in, your hard work will pay off. I can’t wait to see what is next for him and I know that he is definitely on his way to an Oscar. He’s only 21 years old so I can see it happening for him in another 5-10 years for sure! Gotta shout out Ava and the rest of the cast because even though they didn’t win, they showed the world the ugly truth about racism and prejudice from the past that people of color still deal with today. Hopefully the Golden Globes get it right 🤞🏽
Check out Jharrel’s acceptance speech below and let me know what you thought of “When They See Us” and the bigger conversation we need to have as it relates to race. New post will be up on Wednesday. Until then, I hope everyone has a great week and remember to love and live luxuriously!
Good Morning! I can’t take the credit for the topic of today’s post so thanks to my homie Jason for coming up with a great topic. Many people confuse love with lust and for a while, I was guilty of doing the same. Over time, after becoming more self-aware, (check out my previous post to read about that journey!) I was able to see things for what they really were and by taking my rose colored glasses off, it was easier to tell the difference between true love and lust based off of infatuation.
In my opinion, love is multifaceted. There are different kinds of love depending on the individual and the type of relationship that exists. As far as romantic love is concerned, it takes time to build the foundation for the deep connection that transforms the longer you are with someone. I believe that love develops from that foundation and grows over time after being able to see people for who they really are and embrace all of those parts, regardless of their flaws. If I am being completely honest with myself, I feel that most of my relationships didn’t have that strong foundation for love to grow. They were either based off of superficial qualities and once I was able to see the man I was involved with for who he really was, I was blinded by lust, not for the essence of the person I was with but for the image of the man that I created in my mind. I can say one of those relationships was love but because there was so much pain and embarrassment involved with that particular person, I don’t remember the positive emotions that are associated with love such as awe and amazement but more so the negative ones like disappointment and frustration. I know that love isn’t all about rainbows and butterflies but I do believe the good should outweigh the bad and if it doesn’t, is it really love? I feel that everyone will have a different answer depending on their own personal experiences but for me, love should follow the principles that are outlined in 1 Corinthians 13:4-5:“Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.” I feel that this verse embodies the qualities that I feel love should be based on and are necessary for a relationship to grow and last. I am currently single but I promised myself that my next relationship will be with the love of my life and until God feels I’m ready for him to enter my life, I’m good with being alone:)
What emotions/feelings do you associated with love and lust? Let me know in the comments below! You can also connect with me on IG (@amoreluxe_) and on FB (Angela Cherai) to voice your opinion on this topic and if you have any ideas/suggestions for future posts, let me know! Until next time, remember to love and live luxuriously!