Happy Holidays everyone! I wanted to make 1 last post for 2016 before I decided to introduce a few of the changes I have in store for 2017. A lot of my friends and followers have been asking me why the posts on the site have been few and far in between and I would tell them that I was lacking inspiration which was true but there was more behind that statement.
Even though the issue was that I couldn’t think of anything to write about, I really didn’t want to write period. I feel that I can articulate myself better when I am talking to others whether it be through videos or face to face conversations. Writing is just something that I felt obligated to do because I have a blog site and written content is what’s expected so I tried to deliver to the best of my ability. The issue with that was that I wasn’t satisfied with most of my posts. I wanted to get back to doing what I love which is the videos/public speaking/discussions/hosting part of my life. Now my original issue which was the lack of inspiration comes into play.
I feel like talking about myself has become redundant and boring especially since I am still trying to figure a lot of things out and although so many people (including myself) like celeb gossip blogs, that was never the direction I wanted to go in with “Amore Luxe” so I kept wracking my brain trying to figure out what I could talk about that would be entertaining and intriguing without compromising my vision and I think I’ve finally got it! Stay tuned to see what I’ve come up with when I make my first post of 2017 next week 😉 Continue reading
Good Afternoon! I know I haven’t posted in a week and to be honest, I didn’t feel up to it. I’ve been really bummed out lately and up until today, my anxiety was going into overdrive. I had a hard time falling asleep and when I finally did, I kept having weird dreams that I’m still trying to decipher. On top of all that, my chest felt tight and I knew I was worried/anxious but I wasn’t sure why. It took spending time with my grandmother yesterday for the light bulb to go off in my head and the conversation we had helped me get to the root of my anxiety which helped me to move forward.
My grandmother has soooooo many pictures from the time she graduated high school until now and as I mentioned in an earlier post “Photograph”, (https://amoreluxe.com/2016/10/12/photograph/) I love looking at them and hearing all the stories behind the pictures. As we came across a picture of my father who passed in 2014, we both started feeling melancholy and my grandma said “A mother isn’t supposed to outlive her child” and how she usually understands that everything happens for a reason but my father’s passing was something that she could never fully comprehend. I told her that some things just aren’t meant to be understood but that you have to accept it and find peace in knowing that things happen the way they are supposed to. Call it destiny, fate or whatever but what is meant to be will be. In that moment, I realized that most of my anxiety stemmed from the fact that I was worried about things that I could not change or control. I would ask myself questions like “Why did I slack off in my late teens-early 20’s at the first college I attended?” “Why did I waste so much time being involved with men who weren’t ready to commit?” and the one that I kept wasting energy on was “Why does it feel like I’m so behind in life compared to everyone else?” The answer to all of my questions was the same: Since it cannot be changed, I need to find peace with it and move on. I can’t change the past so why do I continue to focus on the mistakes I’ve made as it relates to school or relationships? I can only focus on the present and future and learn from those mistakes to make better choices that will bring happiness and success in my life. When it comes to worrying about others, it’s pointless because as I’ve stated many times before, everyone has their own journey and comparing my life to others doesn’t help me in my journey especially since I may not know what they went through to get to where they are today. Everyone has their own story and while I encourage others to go after their goals and dreams and live up to their potential, I only have control over my life and I need to direct my thoughts and energy on getting to where I want to be and look at positive examples and use that to fuel my motivation instead of allowing it to drain the passion that burns within me. I would say the “Serenity Prayer” every night before going to bed but last night was the first time in a long time that I said it and believed in the words I whispered to myself. For those of you who don’t know the “Serenity Prayer”, here it goes:
God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, Courage to change the things I can, And wisdom to know the difference.
I know that the battle within myself isn’t over yet but I am in a better mental space today and I am glad I am able to share all the craziness inside this head of mine with you! Let me know what you think and like/share this post if you were able to learn something from it 🙂 Check back on Wednesday for my next post which will probably be about what helps me to de-stress because I’ve tried any and everything to relax and stay focused so stay tuned for that!
Much love to you all and always remember to love and live luxuriously!
Good Morning! It’s been almost 3 weeks since my last post and I told myself that I couldn’t keep going weeks without posting but it’s been tough. I’ve got so much on my mind and I feel like I’m being repetitive if I keep talking about the same issues over and over. I wanted to make a post when something interesting/exciting happened but my life feels like it’s been at a standstill just going through the motions instead of living life to the fullest. I knew that the only person stopping me was me but I have tried to figure out what my problem is and I’ve realized that it’s my outlook on life. If I am in a positive state of mind, I’m going to attract positive energy. The same goes for being negative. It’s difficult to think positive when it seems like nothing is going right but sometimes, that’s all you’ve got!
I’m learning that in order for me to get to where I need to be, I have to convince myself that no matter what happens, as long as I’m persistent and consistent, I will get to where I want to be. Trying to force or convince others to feel a certain way about me or what I’m trying to accomplish is pointless because it’s saying that my belief in myself isn’t strong enough to withstand criticism or judgment. When you believe in something enough, no one can tell you otherwise and before I can go after all of my goals and dreams full force, I’ve got to use that positive energy and start truly believing in myself and my gifts/abilities. Once I master that, I will be unstoppable:)
I’ve got a few things that I want to do before the end of the year and I’ll be sure to let everyone know about them when the time is right. Much love and happiness to everyone and I’ll talk to you guys soon!
Always remember to love and live luxuriously!