Good Morning! After a week of writer’s block, I promised myself that I would post something even if it was a quote because I know that there is someone out there that may help from my posts as random as they can be sometimes! I believe that we are all works in progress and I know that as much as I’ve grown in the past few years, I still have a long way to go. I was looking for quotes online and stumbled across one by one of my favorite authors: Dr. Seuss (lol) that spoke about being true to who you are. Even though many people would consider me to be an outspoken and outgoing person, one of my biggest issues is that even though I know that I should focus on how I feel about myself and the decisions I make, the little girl inside of me still seeks approval and acceptance from her peers. It stems from my childhood and adolescence because I didn’t think that anyone cared about how I felt or what I wanted so I stayed silent on the sidelines. It took me years to really put myself out there and at times, I still have issues when it comes to speaking my mind. I have strong opinions about things but sometimes I hold my tongue because I don’t to sound ignorant or misinformed. Other times, I stay silent because I don’t want to feel like I’m the only one that doesn’t “get it” and I didn’t want to start arguing and end up looking foolish in the end. In instances like these, I don’t want to stand out so being silent seems like the only way to be accepted.
I started to notice that I was reverting back to the old me when I was at my retail job the other day. The managers and a few of the associates are very opinionated and self-assured and I started feeling like I used to when I would stay silent on things that bothered me because I wanted to avoid confrontation . Truth be told, I really don’t care for most of the people I work with and feel like I’m settling when I clock in so I’m polite and mainly focus on doing my job until it’s time for me to go. The thing is, I love talking to people about what’s going on in their lives and sharing stories so we can connect and hopefully heal but I can’t be my true self while interacting with associates and customers because the focus is not about connecting but making the sale. Although I went to school for marketing and understand the nature of business, I feel like this place is sucking the positive energy out of me because it isn’t my passion or my purpose. I know it is a temporary thing and I need to make the best of it but I can’t allow this job to bring me to a mental space where I am not being true to who I am or what I feel. Now I know better than to become loud and angry if someone says or does something that doesn’t sit right with me but I also know that I am not going to put up with disrespect solely because of my position as a sales associate. I am trying to find that balance so I can speak my mind and it doesn’t come off as abrasive or defensive but at the same time, I am respected and seen for who I really am.
One of the things I wanted to do this year was focusing on being a better person starting from within. As I stated in an earlier post, I wanted to start eating healthier even before I attempted to work out because I have been told that the key to staying fit is 70% diet and 30% exercise so I’m gonna work on that 70% now. Working on being a better person also means that I have to be in a positive space mentally and spiritually. I spoke about getting rid of toxic people in a recent post (https://amoreluxe.com/2015/01/16/toxic-people/) but even with positive people surrounding me, I have to find that light from within to truly shine. My friend Kimmy and I are always talking about making our dreams a reality.She is involved in social media marketing and has notable clients under her belt but she wants to go out and try new things in the city of dreams and is actually making it happen! She told me that I should read the book “The Secret” because it talks about the law of attraction to gain the things that you really want in life. I plan on starting it tonight so hopefully by next week, I can give my review on it. Also, I am planning on creating a vision board because she made one and so did my friend, beauty blogger extraordinaire Kiwi of www.kiwithebeauty.com (love, love, love her site!) These ladies inspire me and have such positive energy surrounding them so if they are opening up their minds and exploring new possibilities by doing these things, I am damn sure going to do it too because this will help me become the woman I want to be!
There is a quote that says “The only true failure is the failure of not trying”so I am going to make sure I continue to give it my all. I am still working on a few things related to the “Confidence Campaign” so make sure you stay tuned for what I have in store because it is definitely worth the wait:) I hope all of you have an amazing day and remember to always love and live luxuriously!