Vulnerable

Good Morning! It’s been 4 months since my last post and there’s a really good reason for that…I just didn’t want to post for the sake of posting but actually post something when I was inspired. I have been vlogging a bit on Instagram and Snapchat but I wanted to wait until I knew exactly what I wanted to write about…this is more like a venting session so bear with me!

My biggest goal with this site has also been my biggest fear. I strive to be transparent and vulnerable with my readers/viewers but in doing that, I’ve opened up the door to be judged and criticized by others but most importantly, this process has made me overly critical of myself. I turned 31 last week and I never thought that my life would end up this way. I am working at a job which isn’t fulfilling my passion or purpose( or pockets for that matter lol), I am not in a committed relationship and wasted the majority of my 20’s in dead-end relationships, I am not where I want to be mentally, physically or spiritually and most of 2015 and part of 2016 was trying  to come to grips with the fact that life threw me a few curveballs and I didn’t handle them as swiftly as I think I should have and now I’m dealing with the consequences. I know that everyone has their turning point where they decide to make a change in their lives and I realize that I’ve had turning points for different facets of my life. At the end of 2015, I told myself that I wouldn’t have sex unless I was in a committed relationship and I’ve kept that promise no matter how tempting it may have been to fall back into my old ways of doing what was expected and being passive in a relationship. In 2016, I told myself that I would be more financially responsible and pay off my loans and bills. Now I am in 2017 and I am still unattached and still in debt and I wanted to get my life together before I started blogging again so I could be a good example of what being the best version of yourself gets you. It took me a minute to realize that being the best version of myself means that I have to be honest with myself and understand that no one is perfect. I know that to get to where I want to be in all aspects of my life, I have to put it all out there and show the ugliness and bare my soul sort to speak to find the beauty, love and happiness I desire.  Being uncomfortable means that I am allowing myself to accept that I need to change situations and circumstances in my life and gets me out of being in denial or accepting that this is the way that things will be. I have always stated that I am a work in progress but for the first time in a long time, I do not have an issue with putting myself out there when I stumble and fall because I know that in the end, I will have everything that I’ve been waiting for.

With all that being said, I am still trying to figure out the exact vision for “Amore Luxe”.  It started out as a love/sex/relationships website under a different name (If you have been here since “The Angielala Experience”, thank you for your support!) then when I renamed the site “Amore Luxe”, I decided switch my direction and discuss confidence related issues. At this point,  I don’t want to have any restrictions on the topics I talk about but I do want to discuss things that I am passionate about whether it be dating outside my race (which I have attempted in the past and am open to doing again!) or the latest Trey Songz album, (which has turned out to be one of my faves especially after seeing him perform the songs live!) I don’t want to be restricted because I strayed away from the main theme of the site was so as of now, “Amore Luxe will be about love, life and everything in between! I plan on revamping the site in the coming months so be patient with me cause I am an impulsive person by nature which isn’t always good because when I am adamant about things, I tend to rush. When you want to create something meaningful and lasting, these things take time so I wanna pace myself this go around but I promise you will love the result!  Any comments, suggestions or critiques are always welcome and if you don’t feel like sharing publicly in the comments section below, feel free to email me at angelacherai@amoreluxe.com 🙂 I even know what my next post will be about so stay tuned for that topic!

Thanks for reading all of that lol and always remember to love and live luxuriously!

 

 

 

 

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The Pursuit of Happiness

happinessIt has been 2 weeks since my last post and I feel like I’ve let you guys down but I have been in a rut of sorts lately. I knew that trying to get to the point where I could say that I am truly happy would be hard but it feels like something keeps holding me back from achieving greatness.  I have let personal issues ( with my significant other and family) get in the way of my professional goals and the professional goals are the ones I want to carry out that will bring me happiness. I am not saying being successful in the business world is everything and it doesn’t guarantee that you will be successful in all areas of life but its a good start! All of the negative energy coming from my personal situations has brought me down and made me feel vulnerable and helpless in many ways and instead of dealing with it, I kept trying to escape which meant not coming on here and talking about it. Obviously that didn’t work well lol and I had to come back home to you all and let you know what’s been going on with me.

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